The Wolfpack Files

I think I've gone completely numb. Not only is the girl I'm in love with actually dating someone, I'm 99% sure she's done something sexual with him. I realize that in this day and age it's pretty much a given if you're dating someone, you're involved sexually, but it's not something I wanted to hear about. And it also confirms the whole dating issue as well, doesn't it? I am literally shaking right now and I'm having a hard time feeling my hands. She's had a boyfriend before, but that was before I met her. To know that right now she's dating and doing other stuff with a guy that isn't me is totally killing me. I hate my life.